Jus read a FORWARDED message from a best friend

i missed my best friend, yet there is still a line which i promised myself tht i cannot cross. It was no one's fault yet i still blame either me or him,i still cant really make it out. Ive searched myself and everyone to c that what we went wrong, yet i've failed.

After sometime i do realised tht i 've been using some defence mechanism lately to ease my anxiety for that, reaction formation on the lower end and supression and sublimation on the higher end, Freud's theory do make me understand my behaviour.......

i know i m giving up something tht i will regret in near future, i m not d type tht give up a best friend without fighting d odds, yet it's bugging me for quite sometime, if i did not gif it a stop, i might not come out from d so-called dunno how to describe kinda cycle...

i wondered he realised this thingy is happening to me,
or may be i ve failed him as a best friend,
or may be i m jus a so-so friend to him
or many be i m jus no body n it does not worth d fuss to get into the even superficial part of the problem,
or may be i had problem n he does not
or may be it easier to let it go.....

i do really miss him

Have Urself A Merry Little Christmas

It's not a lonely christmas afterall for this year, christmas eve at bangsar with a few of my gd friends do mark something different for d special day(though one my friend who did not go ask me wasnt bangsar are for uncles......, frankly it do not haha), got my beer at last, though it hadnt warn up my throat, it still satisfying :)
should had pick a place with a dance floor, but i doubted my friend would have dance.....

Gosh, one beautiful missy n aother handsome lad is missing in this photo, cont put other cause i dont look nice, hehe

I m not a Christian, so Christmas is more about Christmas tree for me, kinda lame, but i still love mother nature,

Hey where is my legs.......jus kidding, u do take a good photo :P

菲

昨晚不知为何和菱谈起王菲来，已经很久没有人谈她了，或许我大学的朋友之中没人懂我是多么的喜欢她。
喜欢她的声音，喜欢她在婆娑的乐坛竟能如此的做回自己，喜欢她对爱情的诚恳与痴心，喜欢她应用佛法来面对人生。
她是歌手，我是我, 应该是不相干的人物，但她的确是陪我度过了人生

她说过，如果有一天她不唱歌了，希望人们不要记得她
她好像不出唱片了，已经四年了，有点好想念她每次给的期待，她每次给的惊喜，她每次给的满足，
唱歌的人，从不马虎；听歌的人，永远认真。

大马第一场演唱会95年，MISS掉了，因为小学生无知，没话讲
大马第二场演唱会98年，MISS掉了，考着PMR,学业重要，没理由
大马第三场演唱会04年，去了，感觉说不出，如果高兴的scale里，有一到十，那时的感觉应该是十五吧。


王菲在中国04演唱会唱了朴树的那些花儿，昨天很偶然的在youtube看到了



...有些故事还没讲完那就算了吧
那些心情在岁月中已经难辩真假...

她有她的人生故事，需要继续写，或许她还继续唱歌，只是唱给他的丈夫和女儿听
我有我的人生故事，也需要继续写，或许我因该自己开始唱歌给自己听了，
祝福了。。。。。。。