Malacca, which i went with my friends yesterday~ dunno y, just kinda need to find a place to free my mind~ Uni's surrounding is too quiet without my coursemates around, which in not the perfect place for me, need some place with have human in it, not the elves type of feeling (like Lord of the Ring)~ Walking along the street in malacca brought back some of my memories and even awaken me that it's time to settle some unfinished issues and be once n for all. Seeing the old ladies and guys singing outdoor make me sank back when i was small~ all the sweet and bitter memories i had and still have....the person i miss the most is my grandma~ passed away when i was in my lower form six~ some ppl handle their bitter memories by forgetting them, i was a geniues, i kept them in the hidden compartment in my brain, i think geniues wasnt the best word to described tht~ anyway, ppl cry and sad away the incident, i on the other hand encounter the same old sad mood when ever some scene or issues trigger the hidden memories. Human brain can do wonders but sometines are not reliable, some memories are easily forgotten and some do not, lukily they r not returnable goods like those tht are sold in supermarket, if not ... ....

~wonder how was it like being old~ my friends always say that i worried too much and i m ahead of my age, weiredo who never live his youngster days n alr thought of the older one. but one rule is always in my mind, which is everything should be kept simple, neat n nice~ i think it's the rule of thumb of my life~

Feeling~ so sad that it wasnt like instinct, where the reaction to the stimuli were inborn.Do I really believed in my feeling? Sometimes kinda need some rational equation or so-called theory to persuade tht i should go with my thought~ Bought a souvenir to someone who cross my mind this night~

Got a reliable info on the our research project presentation rehearsal yesterday~ got new info on our new semester, election of new class rap n some others important info which i reluctant to listen, just cant take the reality that my big gang in university is splitting, though still be studying the same location but does not breathe the O2 population in the same lecture hall......

after all d presentation, i hav the bad feeling that it's time i need to contribute to my fellow classmates.............i m elected as d class representative. My immunity had been strip off since i wasnt holding any post in PMC. It's like suddenly an elephant had dropped into my arm, so, gonna feed n bathe this animal until he find a new owner in 2006. Hopefully he has nothing similar with the character in jungle book, i m kinda wish it would be like Dumbo.......

Just found a way to spit out my messy thoughts in an organized way, so here I go......

Don't know why, i m kinda into jazz and folk-pop after going in to universities.., starting to love sarah mclachlan and norah jones, noticed that human changes in everything, in everyway and in every time, what i love the most will still be the most but rooms are given out to some news stuffs. Love for Faye Wong's voice has started since when i know what music is all about~ her voice was the thing that i was passionate about, but she grew~ she change~ into the way that suits her the most~ leaving the shells that she make for herself when she wanted to b accepted n b special~ In ppl's lives, something always happen along the line and they relize that they r special when being themselves, just whether other ppl know how to appreciate it~ but the main issue was, did we know to appreciate that~!?

Listening to Sarah's Afterglow concert now~ the lyrics and her voice really hit me, -- Push-- a love song written to her husband, the music kinda flow with my blood~ the feelings she shows are the feelings i m searching,... "you pick me up and brush me off, and tell me i m ok, sometimes that's just what we need to get us through the day", i think that i m not too greedy, just a simple feeling which is complicated to get~