Dream, aim and reality

Dream?
sometime it's sad to know that our dreams lost in the sand of time,
we dream when we r small, dreaming when we r teenager and dreamt when we r young adults...
my secondary school teacher, My Yau told me never to forgot to dream,it's an innate spinal cord reflex kinda thingy in human, jus that we develop our own operon to control it,
i still can remember the story tht how he touched the hand of the buddha statue in Borrobudor even when it's impossible,
i did not really understand d what so called "hidden meaning" at that time, but seems like we need aging process to unlock the meaning.

Dreams sometimes r d only thing that keep u from falling down when u r being knock off by harshness of reality.

aim?
i cant imagine life without aim, may b i m OCD or what, i need aim so that i wont get myself lost,
it not fun waiting in the "lost and found" box, waiting for some saviour to come to distribute enlightenment.
Friends do help, but this feeling came too often, i think it just pending to break down.......
things jus get a little out of hand lately n i dunno what i m doing actually.

Reality?
reality is unspeakable, after all the years i still come back to d same old question with the same answer but with a "but" at the end of the answer
Q: why i want to becoma a doctor (thanks Mr Kw.. for always reminding during on call)
A: i jus want to be able to help, when my love ones (parents, family, friends, wife-still dunoo who she) is in need. They mean eveything to me,without them i m nothing, but i dunno when this answer will last , cause i started not to see the "living" in doctor's life.

It's a grey grey day, rainning soon? weather is jus so unpredictable......