At last, i got my mood back to write my blog,
met my best friend yesterday, spending more then 8 hour talking the universe, didnt really know tht meeting her will brighten up my weekend, these stuffy aircone and recycling C02 in my room really dulling up my life.so, like usual, dailling up the net, click live-update (kinda like norton antivirus defination kinda thing), downloaded the defination, and updated......we talk about relationship, religion, future and what ever, we didnt even have time for cinema, realising tht movies are for ppl who have nothing more to talk, but just wanted to be together and enjoy d presence of each other.Relationship and commitment, love and responsibility,she and i wasnt the one tht believe love last forever, or some say ethernity, everything comes to an end any how, commitment and responsibility are the one which we are able to control of and that is lasting. Can someone else like or even fell in love with ur love ones, can u allow tht? i still trying to figure out my answer......

here's a story i recall, one student ask his teacher, what is love?The teacher ask her student to go to the wheat field and find the biggest wheat and bring it to her but with one condition, he can never turn back to where he had walked, so the young lad soon set off.In the end of the day, he was empty-handed back to his teacher. His teacher ask him why, he said that everything time he wanted to plug d wheat, he thought there maybe a bigger wheat that he may see if he walk further,but everytime the previous seems bigger then the latter,but he cant turn back.the teacher told him, this is the meaning of "love". Later in another day, the student ask his teacher again, what is marriage?The teacher ask her student to go to the forest and chop the biggest wood and bring it to her but again, with one condition, he can never turn back to where he had walked, so the young lad soon set off again.In the end of the day, he brought back a off-medium-sized wood back to his teacher. His teacher ask him why, he said that after he had walk half of the journey and noticed he was still empty-handed, and then he saw this medium-sized tree, so with previous experience, he chopped this tree, And his teacher told him, this is the meaning of "marriage".
Knowing someone we truely love is something beautiful, but somethimes it just happen at the wrong time, as we had already commited to someone else. just like driving ur car along the highway, u saw ur dream car drove pass u, u love tht car but didnt own it, it's either u cant affort it or the modale came out after u had bought ur car. U still cherish ur car even though it wasnt the one u truely like,u still keep on taking good care of her. And in the mean time u still keep on saying tht how wonderful if u had own the dream car......
In a person's life, he/she change at certain line of the station, nothing in the universe stay permenent, and tht's what i believed. When any relationship (friends, family or even love ones) had stated, it all based on a core, just like d earth, it has a core, no matter how did the surface change (volcano eruption, diseased, or even war), it'll be still the earth. Once the core is no more, there wont be earth. Just like the solar system, without the sun as a core, all the 9 planet (today's newspaper say scientist discover the 10th planet) will leave the system.
What do the relatinship between u and ur parents or siblings based on? blood. That is the strongest core we have. No matter how u changed, being bad or good, they will still be the same to u. Let say if one day the core collapsed in what ever reason, will the relationship stays the same? I doubt tht, unless blood wasnt the core of the relationship.What is our core with our friends, was it the trust?the look?the presense?the religion?the course u r attending now? What is the core of ur relatinship with ur bf/gf, ur innocency?ur insecurity?ur music talent?ur social security?ur presense whenever she/he is in trouble? We have to find out and relieze the core very early,as wanting to maintain a relationship with this forever changing life, the core has to be there.The worse example will be someone wanting to be with u becauese of ur beautiful teeth......u gonna get into troble when u r starting ur 50s.............